How do they do it?

First off, I want to say that this blog is not directed to any one person. Believe me, I have no problems with anyone. If I did, you’d know. These are just thoughts. Musings. That popped around in my brain today while doing work.

How do people jump from relationship to relationship? How does that happen? And why am I lacking that part of the brain that can easily move from one person to another mindlessly?

While it is true, I make (and still make) mistakes, but I know I cannot handle a steady, long-term relationship at this point. While it’d be nice. And I do miss it. I am working on my internal issues right now.

It may sound selfish. But, focusing on myself at this moment is the only way I will be able to maintain a steady relationship in the future. You cannot love someone until you love yourself.

Right now, any guy that I see or talk to are not long-term in my head. Long-term for me means to talk and become friends as well as anything else. If I establish a friendship right now with a guy, future possibilities are always open. You never know what will happen, ya know? I am in no hurry.

But, here’s what I don’t get:

People who get into a relationship. Three months later get married. Three months later break up. Two months later get back together. One month later get divorced. Start new relationship.

How, exactly, does that work?

If you move on so easily, was it ever really love?

Because I know that if I am in a relationship, an actual relationship, it takes me months to accept and move on.

Am I built differently?

While I said before, I miss having someone. I do not miss losing who I am. My identity. Which, the mind set I was in at least, caused a lot of the problems I had in my past. I want to be in a relationship because I like him that much. Not because I "need" someone by my side.

So, is that how people jump? They need someone? Or that they don’t know how to function without it?

I’m curious if it’s me or them. Or the way we are built.