2am snackage.

2am snackage.
Current mood: accomplished

I have been living on oatmeal & grape juice since tuesday. My appitite really isn't that great to begin with. With lap-band, you know when you need to eat but don't really get "oh my god I need to eat now" feeling. Although I have lost 5 pounds this week, I know I'm not doing it very healthy - sleeping more than anything. I'm not concerned about it all at this point.

But, I woke up at 2am and I was actually hungry. Last night, during Idol, I was able to eat some mashed potatoes. Even though they contain next to nothing in protein, I wanted something with a bit more substance than oatmeal or pudding.

Lauren, the nutritonist at Dr Morton's office, gave me some little protein-y things to eat when I needed to. So, I got some yogurt and a packet of this unjury protein and had a nice little 2 am snack. I didn't get the full packet in the yogurt - but enough to make me feel full longer. Now I have to be careful because I know I'm not ready to chew fully yet, but my appitite has returned.

I looked up these packets, they are $1.75 each for a 20 gram powder pack. Not bad. I know that I don't get enough protein in general.

Yes, I know how absoultely goofy I look in my default. The bee-hive went out of style in the '60s, I've been told. But I took about 50 pictures and that one was the only one where I look half-way decent. My upper lip is still a little swollen. It'll all ease soon, I hope.

I keep looking at the picture of my father that Jerry sent me. It's all very surreal & amazing to me. Even if I never hear from him again, I know what he looks like and I have a face to put with the name.

Seriously, I am just loving the place I'm in right now. Once I get past my dental healing stage, all my goals I set two years ago have been accomplished. Weight loss, fixed teeth, longer hair, contacts - finding my dad was just a bonus in all of it.