In 6th grade, we'd have to go to the gym before school started. Every morning, we'd pile into the bleachers sectioned off - in the order our buses arrived.
I had just moved back to Smyrna schools from being at LaVergne since 1st grade. I knew no one. No one but Trever, who had transferred the same year, and the 5th grade blonde headed chick who was nice to me on the bus.
The first few weeks, I sat by myself in the gym. Then, as I started to get more comfortable, I decided one day I'd sit beside blonde-headed chick and her friend.
My friend was nice to me, asking me how I was and that she liked my shirt. Her friend snarled her nose at me and scooted away. My friend looked at her, surprised, "where you going?" she said - with no shame, to my face - "I don't talk to fat people. She's ugly."
My friend scrugged and scooted over by her.
I never talked to them again. I can't even remember their names, as they are blacked out in my 6th grade yearbook. Here we are almost 20 years later (imagine my face when I figured that up) and I still never forgot that moment. Although those chicks bothered me, I made a lot of friends that year (but I never got the nerve to speak to Charlie Hall til 7th grade) regardless.
Tomorrow, it'll be a year since I made a drastic decision to save my life. I had Lap-band surgery. Living as one of the "fat people" was starting to destroy me. Although, it's been tough - and definitely not the easy way - I wouldn't take it back for the world.
I know most of blogs revolve around my weight struggle. Especially the whining when I gain a few (or 8!) So, I will leave this one with my stats, updated today:
2005 - size 39 womens jeans/60 mens.
2008 - size 30 womens jeans/51 mens.
2005 - size 32 shirt.
2008 - size 14 shirt.
2005 - Bust, 46DD
2008 - Bust, 42C :(
2005 - Ring, 9
2008 - Ring, 7 1/2
2005 - Shoe, 11
2008 - Shoe, 9 1/2
2005 - Hips, 69
2008 - Hips, 58
2005 - Waist, 40
2008 - Waist, 34
Total weight loss since surgery: 52lbs
Total weight loss: 103lbs
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